Angelic Message for Today

"Think with your hands."

Post Haste

It has been almost six years since I started this blog to practice writing and process my decision to leave my established life and ultimately my faith and find that things have turned out okay. I would hope that I will never have to go through that kind of a mental vortex ever again. My fear was that my choice for my happiness was going to be used against me. That some evil fate or retribution was waiting right around the corner at every step I took toward this freedom, but it never did.  I now see that I can be happy just by being aware, knowing I am good, there is nothing to be guilty about.

Life wants to give me life, happiness and all of kinds of goodness.  Now I live on my own, with a partner who hears me, loves me, supports and protects me and bottom line, respects me and that is why this works. I continue to trust and respect myself as well.

NEW MOON IN LIBRA

For those who may wonder about the future relationship flux here are three clear tenets to help understand exactly who we will be matched with: those who have earned their place in our lives, those with whom we share the greatest energetic resonance, and those with whom we can be of greatest service to. Be aware that the people who remain and enter into our lives during the next six moons are the ones which God has ordained that we are to love, serve, live, and co-create with. The winds of change are gusting, flow with them. 

http://www.starseedastrology.com/apps/blog
Photography by Naomi Chan

Poppy

     I have this dog.  She's dysfunctional.  I look at her tonight and ask "and why are you here?"

     How is it I always attract the "dysfunctional"?  Is it because I am good at it, facilitating it, looking past it and at the good?  The wise?  The kind?! I look at my dog and see that again we have the dysfunctional!!!  Why do I always have to do that, my road leads down the many paths and winding roads to who is more weird so Renee can take care of them.  She knows how, God made her OVER COMPASSIONATE, and she gets to find the balance.  WTF I say, why TF!  Ugh...
     For the benefit of some people I know and to my dismay at other times...
     My first memory of befriending the outcast was in elementary school.  There was a girl that got picked on named Roberta.  Who would ever name there child Roberta?  To my memory there wasn't anything different about her than anyone else I was in school with but she became a target of ridicule.  My instinct was to become her friend, her compadre, in an effort to make her life more normal, in an effort to be the one that reflected back that she was normal.  In essence to say Love yourself, you are fine and you are more than they make you out to be.  I thought my classmates to be very mean and created this friendship on her behalf, not because I ever really was drawn to her as a like minded person but in an effort to shield her pain with a reflection of hope.   
     Then ther was this guy who would come in for coffee every morning at "Cafe Pateen"* and he was  so angry every time he came in that I made it my goal to be kind to him every time he came in no matter what he said or how he looked at me and become his comapadre.  He eventually softened to me and came to be quite kind to me... My efforts had worked.... What posessed me to do that I am not sure.  There was no premeditated outcome to it in the end.  He wasn't even remotely close to someone I would choose to become friends with on an ordinary day. 
     My intense desire to make people feel good, feel good about themselves and feel accepted, and why?  I don't know.  I have always thought if I were in a theatre I would be the person running around in the dark backing things up, making scene changes in the dark to make others look better.  MMMmmm... thinking pooh is thinking about this one. 
     Then when I was working at the MIA I met this guy who my manager at the time could not even deal with.  He was Chinese and couldn't understand how to run the cash reginster, etc, etc, in this proto type snack shop they were try ing out, so she told me to please train him.  This is where we start..."Chan".  I just remember thinking this is the skinniest guy I have ever met in my life.

Dharma

"Path of Awakening" and thus conforms to a universal understanding of dharma. The teachings are means of getting the hearer to question their own cherished beliefs and view of life; when through investigation and insight is opened the door to truth, the teaching can be put aside.

Dorothy

char·ism
noun
Inflected Form(s):
plural cha·ris·ma·ta \kə-ˈriz-mə-tə; ˌker-iz-ˈmä-tə, ˌka-riz-\ or charisms
Etymology:
Greek charisma
Date:
circa 1641
: an extraordinary power (as of healing) given a Christian by the Holy Spirit for the good of the church

My Upcoming Year

William Blake Tarot Ace of Poetry (Inspiration) A six-winged cherub descends to touch the poet's lips as he writes upon a scroll draped over his right leg. A manifestation of spiritual power, the cherub represents the divine inspiration as a sexual metaphor. Blake says: "In Beulah the female lets down her beautiful tabernacle, which the male enters magnificent between her cherubim, and becomes one with her." The tabernacle refers to genitalia, the cherubim to the labia, while Beulah is the realm of creativity and sexuality. This card thus symbolizes the reception of inspiration as spiritual cunnilingus, or communicating with the sacred. Blake's lines in the window declare the universal poet's mission, which is to create Poetry by letting spirit in (inspiration), renouncing the "rags" of rules and rationality, and sacrificing one's ego (self-annihilation). "Faith in the Saviour" means believing in your divine self, in your own imagination as your personal savior.